XSFJ

Sitting outside of group - wish i could write more interesting things. Feeling nervous about going in because i haven't told them about the engagement being off. And i'm realizing that when i think about being present it's usually about where i am with the relationship. And what i really want to know is where i am with myself. Where is my emotion at this moment... I keep hoping that if i do some external activity or trip or thing that i'll be present. That if i keep moving i'll find it... Maybe that's the wrong way to go about it for me.