Revisionist thoughts

“if only I hadn’t been divorced twice, then everything would be easier”.  Being in a relationship would feel “cleaner” because I wouldn’t have this past baggage.  I wouldn’t have to deal with saying goodbye to _two_ sets of families.  I’m still having a _really_ hard time accepting that I’m a twice divorced man.  I’m having a really hard time loving this part of myself – integrating it in.